P L A Y G R O U N D

學校的事已經令我很煩.
當我以為有個新開始..
其實是相反..
我發覺我原來還有一個問題會需要很久很久的時間讓我去適應.
其實我不想.
不想去試.
不想去改變.

如果這個問題真的是那麼困難..
我知道 最後我只會放棄..
我覺得自己可以拋開以前的事 有個新開始 已經是踏出了一大步
至少這次我有勇氣踏出這一步

L O V E / H A T E

  L O V E

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 H A T E

It`s the feelings that Kimi doesn't want to let it go.

She doesn't want to forget. It stays there no matter how long it has been, it wont fade away.

It is the feelings that could makes people do wrong. feel regret and guilty afterward.

Does feelings fade away?

It depends, Kelvin said. Kimi agree with him. It depends how strong is the feeling and how much you care.

Feeling could change a person, Kimi had changed a lots. Thanks to Y O U.  the way she thinks.

Kimi hated herself because of the feeling she had. Now it`s O V E R.. she is not going to do any harm to herself anymore. physically or mentally. whatever. She is trying hard to be happy. 

It has been a while, no more tears drop.

Just want to say, once YOU`D HURT someone, there's SCAR that stay in their heart forever to remind them what YOU DID.

F A I R Y F L O S S

Sometimes Kimi  just wish she could go back to the days where she could only has her happiness.

Even though, There aren't much.

As we grow older, we found its harder to be happy. It is because we want more, we need more than we used to.

Kimi does not hide her feelings anymore. At least kimi is trying not to hide. Kimi is not ashamed of what she did to herself, how she hurt herself. I guess, she does not need anyone to accept for WHAT she is, because she is getting to know herself better. As long she knows herself, is not a matter anymore.

She stopped drawing and writing for a while. 

Drawing and writing used to be her weekly activity.

Kimi thought stop drawing and writing could make her forget what happened, or maybe "theres nothing happened". 

Does this really help? She doesnt know either.

Does kimi know what she is doing? Does she know what she want?

I guess, She is still finding the answers. She lost herself. she is still finding the faiths she used to have. Oh yes, she is still feel ashamed of what happened with someone. she is not good enough. Thats how she lose her faiths.

Glad that Kimi knows what she likes. 

Unfortunately, she doesnt know if she should follows her dream.

Or if she does, Is anybody going to support her? well, maybe the question is " Is anybody going to AGAINST?"

F A I R Y F L O S S . C A N D Y F L O S S . just randomly came up in my mind.