Dear..

Dear,
Can you hear me?
Every minutes I am speaking to you from deep inside my heart. 
Could you hear me?

Everything I am doing, I am doing it for you.
Everything I am fighting for, they are for you. I have been working so hard, for you.

Are you there when I say all the words inside my heart?
I can not tell anyone. I can only express my feelings through writing it down. 

I always wonder what you are doing. Are you watching me?
What do you think of me?
Do you ever think of me? Where are you now? Where...? and when can I see you again?
I asked myself so many times..
What can I do to make you happier?
It's Christmas Eve.. I never ever like Christmas ..again.
Because I miss you.
I miss you so much... My heart ache. Like no one understand how I feel, no one understand.
No matter how long it had happened, I cannot forget. I cannot forget all the things I have done for you..
Do you know?

You taught me, what love is.
You taught me the reality is cruel and I need to work hard to get what I want. Sometimes I don't get what I want even though I try my hardest.
You made me know myself more, How weak I am.. How much I can do when there's problem.
You made me push myself so hard.. work so hard because I do not want a single moment to think of you. I want to collapse, faint and never get up.
You meant so much to me. . .
You.. made me learn how to forgive others... Forgive and consider for others..

When will we meet?

最難過的 感覺

感覺一直在飄浮
時有時沒的

感覺寫不出來 只會在停留在腦海裡
感覺可以記下來嗎 像攝影一樣 把那一刻留下來 留給回憶

曾經有人對我說 不要太介意現在的事 因為到未來的時候 你可能已經忘記了 或者 也不會在乎
應該擁有一種心態 付出了 不要計算 不要想收穫

每個人都會在其他人身上學到一些東西 像相處之道 價值等等
不知不覺 會變的

我知道 我還有一段很遙遠的路程 要自己走過
很辛苦 當我摔到的時候 當我以為有人支持我的時候 “教我慢慢站起來 
一步一步走下去 走錯了 沒關係 繼續走 雖然會完成這段路的時間會比較久 沒關係的”
但是原來那個時候才發現 那人讓我再摔一次 要我自己站起來
要我變得更努力工作 變得更獨立 是時候給多點時間在自己身上
 累了 就給自己休息一下
    我真的好累